Angels

All in all this situation just sucked. HARD CORE. Like I mentioned before Jon and I had a list about what we wanted in adoptive parents. Some of the things we wanted on that list was 4 or less hours away, in a stable marrage,had a degree, valued education, had a pet, good house, not overly rich, but not poor,didnt already have kids and some religous beliefs. As the e-mails went back and forth each question got answered and i started to fall in love with this random couple, THEY WERE PERFECT ... Of course i also wanted to give other people a chance so i took my list to my social worker who would get me files of other adoptive parents and Jon, My Mom, Jons Mom and my self sat around a bigggg table looking at other peoples files about why they wanted our baby.. why they wanted a baby at all even. I was a bit disappointed in my Social worker at this point.. she gave me files of parents that already had 2 kids.. that were poor, that didnt even graduate high school. Nobody fit the card that i wanted.

I had people tell me "you can't be picky, youre not gonna find someone who fits EVERYTHING on your list" and guess what i said?
SCREW YOU! this is MY baby and im gonna find the most PERFECT people in the world. Only the best will get this baby.. and if i cant find them, then she is staying with me. I was determinded to find the angels that walked the planet who would become the parents of my own little angel.

I Knew this was what i had to do.. I had to do it.

All but only one

All But Only One

A tiny heart beating slowly,
A hard decision to be made,
A life and school and future planned,
A huge price must be paid.

A tear that flows down her cheek,
stains her broken heart.
she has to make the decision soon,
and she knows it will leave a mark.

All day and night she thinks and thinks,
to make a choice thats right.
Its hard on her and everyone,
because this is such a fright

The day came for the final thought,
and she cried all over again,
because after thinking all day and night
she just couldn't hide the pain.

She made the decision thats right for her
even tho everyone else disagreed.
She gave away her special gift,
to someone else in need.


-- Kate